DAY 27
Dear self-love,
for many years you were not a part of my life.
Self-hatred was what was familiar to me. I was convinced that I was ugly and not worthy of being loved.
It was particularly bad when I had to wear those horrible braces for 7 years. I couldn’t bear to look at myself in the mirror. And then I also had lots of pimples, which I tried to hide under tons of makeup, which of course made the whole thing even worse.
The funny thing was that when I met another person with braces or pimples on their face, I didn’t care. I talked to that person normally and didn’t find them repulsive or anything like that.
But with myself, I just couldn’t stand it.
I didn’t even notice that other people were dealing with me normally and just talking to me. Nobody ever pointed a finger at me or said that they thought it was disgusting.
When I worked in Türkiye, we once had a customer who I still remember today.
It was a girl of about 18 years old. She was slim, had beautiful blonde curly hair, blue eyes, a being like an angel, a soft high voice and a charisma that made you feel immediately at ease around her.
Her only flaw was severe acne on her face. She tried to cover it up with make-up, but the bumps were still visible.
And because of this one flaw, she was very reserved and ashamed of her appearance.
She didn’t even notice that every man who walked past her smiled at her and tried to make eye contact with her.
All she noticed was her own self-image that she was ugly.
I didn’t understand this at the time, but I have since learned that a lack of self-love is actually energetically responsible for her having this extreme acne.
And that’s exactly how I felt.
The more I hated myself and thought I was ugly, the more the universe reflected this inner attitude to me. So, you think you’re ugly, then I prove to you that you are and make you ugly.
It’s a vicious circle that never ends if you can’t understand why it’s happening.
But I have managed to break out of it and bit by bit I am now working on developing self-love and a loving self-image for myself.
And to be able to do this even better, it’s time to eliminate the old thoughts in my system.
So, I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to help me cut these bad bonds.
I am going to take the big golden scissors now and cut the lines to self-hatred, the belief of being ugly and not worthy of being loved.
All that is left now is the unconditional love for myself and my body.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for the help to heal these wounds.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.