DAY 42
Dear manipulation,
since my earliest childhood it has been so easy for other people to manipulate me.
Because I was taught by my parents that I had to listen to what they said and that my own opinion didn’t count, I took other people’s truth as my own.
This made me so easy to influence, sometimes I was like a puppet that was so easy to control.
Whenever I tried to resist this, I felt guilty.
It was stored in my system that I was responsible for others and their happiness.
A learned behavior that kept me busy and held me back for a long time.
A bad habit that haunts me to this day.
Even today, I feel guilty when someone asks me to do something and I simply don’t want to do it because I know very well that it’s not good for me.
It’s hard to break these patterns when they’ve been stuck in your unconsciousness for over 41 years, they’re like a home to you.
Because as soon as I try to break out, I feel lost because I’ve left my familiar path.
But for my own well-being, for my own peace and for my own truth, I have to take that step.
No more excuses, no more hesitation.
From today on, I resist this pattern in me and when the feeling of guilt rises in me, I will send it packing.
Because what good has it done me so far to follow this path? What good has it done me to put other people’s needs before my own?
Nothing but bad feelings and frustration. Being trapped in a life that doesn’t suit me and feels like I’m a stranger in my own body.
So, I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to support me to break out of this behavior.
I am going to take the big golden scissors now and cut the lines to the beliefs, that I have to put the needs of others above my own.
From now on, I will focus on my own truth that shows me how to live a happy life.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your help to start this new chapter in my life.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.