DAY 72
Dear dialogs,
over the last few days, the never-ending conversations in my head won’t let me go.
It’s like my mind is talking to what this addictive energy inside me wants so badly. It’s as if my mind can create a connection between that and it to feel safe and better.
But my mind forgets the polarization that exists between me and what it desires so much. Because the more I deal with what this addictive energy in me demands, the more I push it away from me.
But my mind and my ego just don’t want to accept that, not to mention the possibility that what they both desire may not ever be meant to be in my life.
And my mind vehemently refuses to accept this, to let go of it, to stop thinking about it or having conversations with it.
And that is exactly what I have to learn, because only when I and my mind have understood that there is no separation between this and me, but that we are practically one, only then will there be no more polarization.
And only then can this thing enter my life and staying, if it is meant to be.
But my mind and my ego are fighting so desperately to create this connection right now, but this is a process that has to be completed first, it is organic growth. It cannot and will not come through pressure.
Only by remembering and being aware of what I really am, without my mind and ego controlling me.
The memory of my soul, which is much more than what I am experiencing at the moment.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your support in this process.
Thank you, Papa, for your unconditional love and for these opportunities, I love you.