DAY 57
Dear distractions,
at the moment you are making noise at every corner.
No matter whether it’s new music that I hear and am immediately on fire, listening to it over and over again.
Or whether it’s new seasons of TV series that I used to love watching.
At first I’m excited, but after hours of listening or watching I feel that it has distracted me so much that I haven’t lived in consciousness for a long time during the day because I haven’t had time to be in stillness.
In the last two days in particular, you had a full grip on me and during my morning and evening meditation it was difficult for me to silence my even more circling thoughts.
But now I can see that this is just another attempt to dissuade me from my path.
Thanks to my mentor Modita, I have learned that I need to be aware that I live in a black magic world. But I chose this, I knew that the darkness in this world will try to stop my awakening the moment I even begin to let my light shine.
Because the darkness doesn’t want you to come out of dependency, it wants to hold you there with all its might so that you can’t influence other people and lead them to the light too.
The darkness loves it when you are stuck in bad feelings and really pour energy into anger, fear, envy, frustration and hate.
Because it feeds on this energy and gets stronger every second. And this unlight has a lot of possibilities to attack you and influence you.
Whether it’s through people who are guided by it, disasters that happen, technology failures, even animals can use it for their purposes.
I have experienced it several times, especially with my mentors, when they have helped a certain range and a certain number of people, then suddenly their websites crashed for unknown reasons, YouTube blocked their videos for no apparent reason, Facebook or Instagram blocked their accounts for no legal reason, registrations for seminars suddenly did not work properly or e-mails sent disappeared on the way to the recipient and what I myself have often experienced during an online course, that the internet was constantly on strike and failed.
Now you could say that this is all just a coincidence, but I have experienced this myself.
Two months ago, when Papa showed me a certain person on Instagram who will probably play an important role in my life later on, my Instagram app on my phone simply closed twice while I was just scrolling through his profile.
And when I tried to contact him a few days later because I just wanted to ask him a simple question, my smartphone freezed twice and it was only on the third attempt that I was able to send the message at all.
Some would say that these are all bad signs and that you should therefore stop trying. But that’s exactly what the unlight wants to achieve.
And if you know that this is how the darkness works, then you can be sure that this is exactly what you have to do to get to where you are supposed to be.
Now that I know that all these distractions only serve the purpose of hindering me in my path, it’s time for me to stop being distracted.
For me that means detoxification. No more social media suggesting new music and fuck the new seasons of TV shows.
From now on, I’m going to focus on what’s really important again to invite the stillness in my life.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your help to make these things clear to me.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.