DAY 55
Dear ups and downs,
you are now taking turns so quickly that I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster.
Chaos, absolute chaos, should lead me away from my path?
I’m sorry, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that chaos means that things rearrange themselves to finally get to where they’re supposed to be.
So, my dear mind and dear mind-led feelings in me, I know what you are aiming for, but there is no more wavering.
No turning back.
Maybe sometimes doubt.
And maybe sometimes the feeling of being lost, because I don’t know where the path really ends.
But that certainly won’t bring me to stop or even go back to my old life, it’s too late for that.
And I am fully aware that the battle is far from over and far from won.
But through the slowly awakening awareness within me, I can see that it’s not about fighting.
There is nothing I have to actively do to end this battle of my mind. I am becoming more and more of an observer of these things, understanding that this has to be right now in order to leave my old ego behind.
Because there is nothing to achieve, I don’t have to become or follow anything, because I am all that already.
I am my soul.
The remembering of simply being.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, to help me understand these things.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.