DAY 5

Dear sister Doreen,

for 3 years you were alone with our parents, before I came into your lives.

You had lots of memories with our father and you never got over the fact that you lost him at the age of 7.

But there was one thing to hurt you much more and that was when our mother buried all her memories in her heart after his death and never talked about him anymore.

I know that you had never this kind of connection that I had with our stepfather. And sometimes I could feel that you were jealous of me because of that fact.

You buried your sadness inside your heart and pretended to be happy.

We could never really talk. There was always this wall between us.

I saw that it was rough for you, but I was 3 years younger than you and couldn’t understand what’s going on inside of you.

All I understood was that you always thought that I had more luck in my life then you.

How often do you said, that it was so easy for me to be better in school, to got better jobs and that I was the favorite daughter of our stepfather.

What you not saw was the many hard work I put in to get good school grades, how many unpaid overtimes I had to take to get these “good” jobs and that I had to pay a high price to get the attention of our stepfather. It was all simply hard work and had nothing to do with luck.

When you were a teenager of 16 you became rebellious and cheeky, because you felt that your life was based on unfairness.

And even our mother tried not to react as her mother, she still couldn’t handle you being so disobedience all the time. And then one day when she was completely overstrained, she hit you.

I will never forget this evening when you were sitting on your bed crying and I had this massive need to comfort you.

For 2 minutes I was sitting there next to you and imagined in my head over and over again that I should give you a hug. When I finally did it you pushed me away.

And this is our relationship since then. So often I tried to reach out to you but you always pushed me away.

So, we don’t talk anymore.

Since you moved out when you became 18 it was like I never had a sister.

So now is the time to clear these bonds between us.

So, I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to help me cut these bonds.

I am going to take the big golden scissors now and cut the lines to misunderstanding, jealousy and the feeling of not being wanted.

All that is left is my bond of unconditional love for my sister.

Please Papa, help her to find the love and the peace she was ever looking for. Give her the attention and the feeling of being seen and lead her to a happy life, because she deserves it.

Thank you my guides and all the light beings around me, for the help to heal this relationship.

Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.

DAY 6