DAY 47
Dear confusion,
it’s really amazing what’s going on inside me right now.
I concentrate on the silence and my mind switches on and tries to analyze every single process that happens through thinking.
I feel like I’m on a merry-go-round and I’m starting to feel really dizzy. High, low, high again, low again.
And my mind is really cunning, one moment it sends me enormous doubts, the next moment it pats me on the back and says I’m doing the right thing.
Like an obsessive seeker, it tries to figure out how all this will and should work.
But that is precisely the problem.
This process cannot be described, it cannot be explained logically to the mind.
There are no words that even come close to describing what happens in me and to me when I awaken.
It’s an inner struggle that takes a lot of strength and perseverance, but I just know it’s worth it.
Even if I haven’t arrived there yet, although there is nothing I have to arrive at, I just have to remember to be.
It’s not easy to simply throw 42 years overboard when my mind has been my anchor.
But that’s exactly what Papa wants me to learn.
That’s why I won’t stop.
My trust in Papa is what helps me to keep going, always remembering that I don’t have to go anywhere, I don’t have to become anything, I just have to be what I really am.
So, thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your support on this.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.