DAY 30
Dear compass,
before I had you, I felt so lost.
I doubted every decision I made, didn’t believe in myself and every time that was mirrored back to me by the universe with a bunch of shit that happened to me.
Which pulled me even deeper into doubt and made me feel even more lost.
A vicious circle, which I was able to break thanks to Papa and my connection to him through this compass inside of me.
When I heard about you from my mentor Modita, I laughed. I couldn’t believe that such a thing really existed, but then I tried it, first I was speechless and then overwhelmed.
I began to live in the question, but I confess that I didn’t trust you at first. My own stubbornness made me doubt your every answer and instinctively I wanted to prove to you that it wasn’t you, but only my analytical mind that was right.
And to this day I have to smile about how quickly you showed me, with the help of Papa, that this behavior only leads to one thing, failure.
Whenever I decided to do the opposite of what you advised me to do, I didn’t achieve one of my goals, but failed completely.
Then finally I started to listen to your answers and suddenly it was as if help was coming from everywhere in the form of previously unanticipated opportunities and open ways that supported me in getting exactly where I wanted to go, what I wanted to achieve.
Today I trust you, let you guide me, even though I often don’t like your answers.
But you are connected to divine wisdom, you can see miles in advance why a certain thing is right for me or not, because you can see the big picture in the past, the present and the future.
You don’t make decisions based on my past experiences, as my analytical mind would do.
I am so infinitely grateful that you are there for me every single second of my life and that you help me to make the decisions that support me to go my own way. I love you.
Thank you, Papa, for giving me this gift through my mentor Modita. I feel so much more connected to you because of this compass. I love you.