DAY 22

Dear husband Frank,

you came into my life when the world around me collapsed.

After my father replaced me with his girlfriend just like that, you were the anchor that told me that I finally had to start fighting for myself, to stop putting up with everything so silently.

You are so strong, you make an opportunity out of everything, you have so much knowledge, even though you are dyslexic and have never read a single book in its entirety.

But what you don’t know is that I’ve changed so much during our relationship, that I’m no longer the woman who married you.

And I can see that you can sense that, and you’re trying with all your might to keep me where I can no longer be.

I can’t talk to you about it, every time I’ve tried, you’ve blocked it, laughed at me or prevented it with a dismissive comment.

You are pushing me back when I need your closeness, you are constantly in a bad mood when I am happy and you unconsciously try to keep me away from my passions and my mission in life.

And to be honest, I’ve been so desperate more than once and wondered if it still makes sense between the two of us. But Papa and my compass told me to stay.

And until yesterday I didn’t understand why, but then we had a really honest conversation for the very first time and now I understand.

You hurt other people with words because you yourself are so wounded inside. You try to appear strong and self-confident on the outside, but on the inside, you are afraid of failing and being thought weak. You believe that you are only worth something if you work to prove your worth and therefore you never allow yourself and your body to rest.

And that’s the real reason why Papa wants me to stay.

Because I have the strength and the opportunity to show you that you are so much more and deserve all the happiness in the world.

And I am fully aware that this will not be an easy task for me, that I have to learn in this process that you will try in more ways than one to shake my confidence and trust.

But I believe that this is what I am supposed to do to develop my full strength and become so confident in myself that nothing can shake my belief in myself and my abilities in the future.

And that’s what I’m going to do now, because I love you.

I love you for the person you really are behind that facade.

So, I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to help me show him through my skills and passions that unconditional love demands nothing.

Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.

DAY 23