DAY 113
Dear drama,
I know that this is only the rebellion of my mind, that is creating these doubts and depression like thoughts.
But at this moment I really don’t know how long I can stay strong anymore.
I mean, my whole environment is expecting me to make my best to solve any problem that comes their way. I feel like a robot with a smile on the face and do what is demand from me.
And that although the technology constantly striking when I try to finish the work, that for every solved problem appear two new ones and on the top of that I am having an allergic reaction out of nowhere on my skin and the itching is driving me crazy.
Why does it seem that literally everything is working against me while I am just trying to survive?
I feel as if I’m already hanging on the edge of an abyss, clinging on with my last ounce of strength, and there’s no one there to support me in any way.
Deep down I know that I am not alone, but the darkness and doubt created by my cunning mind prevent me from trusting and seeing the things and energies that could help me.
It is hard to see the good in this moment.
And it is harder to know that I have chosen to experience this situation.
I hope it is really worth it, that I am feeling like shit and have so hard to fight with me to not just let go and give up.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your support in this process, even if I can’t really feel you right now.
Thank you, Papa, for your unconditional love and for these opportunities, I love you, even if I can’t find the connection with you right now.