DAY 45
Dear journey,
when I started this novel, I thought I had to do it to experience healing, but now I know that wasn’t the reason Papa wanted me to do it.
Because now I understand that I don’t need to be healed, but that I have something completely different to do.
I have to remember who I really am.
It was never about what experiences I have had in life and how much they have shaped me, but all of this should lead me to a single truth.
The realization that I am not broken and need to be fixed.
The realization that I am not my mind and my feelings that rule me.
The realization that behind it all, I am one thing, a beautiful soul connected to the divine source.
With this journey, I am only meant to remember that again.
I have to leave behind the conviction that I am what I thought my identity was.
I have to leave behind the conviction that I am my mind and that it must control me.
And I have to leave behind the conviction that I am helplessly at the mercy of my feelings.
My job is to remind myself of all this.
I have to understand deep down that there is nothing I can do about it. That there is no goal to achieve. No set action that I can do step by step to get there.
I don’t have to become it, because I already am.
All I have to do is allow the clarity and embody that.
To accept and welcome the being within me.
So, I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to cut the bonds to my old thoughts.
I am going to take the big golden scissors now and cut the lines to the beliefs, that I am broken and have to be healed.
From now on, no doing, no trying to achieve this goal, no obsessive thinking about it. Just being, accepting and allowing my soul.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your help to set the first drop in me.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.