DAY 33
Dear beliefs that I have to make other people happy,
since my earliest childhood, I have been under the misconception that harmonious coexistence with other people is only possible if I make sure they are happy.
As a child, I always had to complete a task as quickly as possible. If I didn’t do this and my mother was in a bad mood because of it, my father told me more than once that it was my fault that she wasn’t happy.
So, for most of my life I thought that I was responsible for other people’s happiness. A burden that almost broke me.
Because if you’re only concerned with making other people happy, always looking for the path to happiness for them, you can no longer see your own path to happiness. Then it’s like your path is right at your feet, but you only look to the left at the other person, but don’t waste a moment looking forward at the path to your feet.
And the even worse thing is that you will never be successful.
Because how can you know what real happiness is for another person?
Most people themselves don’t even know what happiness really means to them and what it looks like.
So how are you supposed to know what the right thing is?
It’s a game you can never win from the start.
All you’ll ever get out of it is frustration that you’re constantly failing.
And if you play this game long enough, it does something to you that’s hard to get rid of.
In my case, it made me feel overwhelmed when dealing with other people. I’m a Cancer, which means that I’m looking for a harmonious relationship in which I can lovingly take care of the needs of my family members. So, it was more important to me than anyone else to make others happy, I thought, to bring harmony into my life and the lives of others.
But when you are frustrated because everything you do doesn’t work, you either break down or, as in my case, you instinctively start to bury your feelings inside you and decide to distance yourself.
That’s one of the reasons why I became a loner, because being around other people became too exhausting for me.
I didn’t realize at the time that it was just because I was putting their needs before mine.
Thank God I’ve learned over the last few years that it’s important to put myself first.
But I’m still a long way from reaching the point where that works 100%.
So now it’s time to get it out of my system.
That’s why I call you my guides and all the light beings around me to help me cut this bond.
I am going to take the big golden scissors now and cut the lines to the beliefs that I am responsible for the happiness of other people.
All that is left now is the knowledge that I have to be happy.
Thank you, my guides and all the light beings, around me, for your help to free me from my old thoughts.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.