DAY 19
Dear Bodo,
you were my very first mentor and made me really think about the development of my personality for the first time in my life.
Your book “The Laws of a Winner” changed my life, I love the analogies it contains.
And your story about the difference between ducks and an eagle finally made me understand why I always preferred to be independent.
You taught me that I only have to put in enough work to get what I really want in my life. And I have done that. Every single day I worked through your online courses and implemented the concepts bit by bit.
The biggest and best change to date has been understanding who I allow to claim my attention.
Since then, I no longer watch the news, everything that is important to me came to me anyway, be it through a picture on the internet, through hearsay or through a friend who told me about it.
And to this day, I still have to laugh about it when I started sorting through my things and cupboards in November 2017 and threw away everything that didn’t make me feel good. Especially photos that I had kept to remember, it was so liberating to throw everything away that had been weighing on my mind, especially pictures of people who had hurt me.
And then the funniest thing happened, when I was in full swing and my cupboards were slowly getting emptier and more organized, suddenly my husband started to clean out his cupboards too, without me asking or prompting him to.
And even today I do this at regular intervals, funnily enough usually just before Christmas, to get rid of things that no longer suit me and my goals.
I really tried to follow your instructions and thought your way was also my way.
At that time, I had a full-time job where I worked 60 hours a week. I was writing my second novel, working on my website, taking care of the household, laundry, cooking meals and our animals. I took care of practically everything, tried to give 1% more every day than the day before and almost lost myself in the process.
For almost 2 years I only had time to sleep 4 hours a night, after that I could feel myself getting closer and closer to a breakdown.
And back then I didn’t understand why, with all the hard work I put in, I didn’t succeed like you did. All I got was more work, like I had become a magnet for other people’s problems. Someone was always coming and wanting help from me and I was just exhausted.
Today I understand why this had to happen.
Because the path that one person takes to reach his goal is not the same path that another person has to take to succeed.
The fact that I’m not a man also plays a decisive role here.
Men grow linearly and steadily, but this concept doesn’t work for women, which I only understood years later thanks to my mentor Julia.
A woman’s life is cyclical and if she disregards this fact and tries to apply the concept to men as frantically as I did, then it can only go wrong.
And even here you have to be careful, because just because a woman works with her cycle and discovers a method that makes her successful doesn’t mean that this strategy will work for the next woman.
Thank God an inner voice made me stop before I could actually break down.
Nevertheless, I am grateful to you for everything that you have allowed me to learn.
And I know that I don’t have to cut any bad bond between you and me, because all I feel for you is so much thankfulness, that you helped me understand and make me grow.
I wish you and your family all the best in the world. May your life always be full of unconditional love.
Thank you, Papa, for sending him to me at the time I needed him, I love you.