DAY 18
Dear Michael,
our relationship was the strangest I’ve ever had.
I would probably call it a somewhat longer-lasting affair.
There was no love involved, it was purely physical.
And somehow every time we went out, something bad happened, as if Papa was trying to tell me more than once that I shouldn’t do it.
But at the time, I just didn’t want to be alone. I ignored everything else, all the warning feelings and the accidents that happened.
And after 3 months, something happened that completely changed my perspective on the search for my perfect partner.
We had arranged to meet that Saturday evening and the day before I had bought another new romance novel for myself. And I started reading it at lunchtime on Saturday.
And this story was so wonderful, a couple who met by chance at a masked ball, didn’t really like each other at first and then they finally fell in love.
And at that moment, I realized that this was exactly what I wanted.
No more of this frantic search for my dream partner, rushing from one date to the next and being on dozens of dating apps and always on the lookout.
I wanted to have fun with my life and then meet the right person at the right time.
And on that day, I decided to stop. No more dating apps, no more desperate meetings with men and an end to this strange relationship.
I wanted to tell you that evening on our date that I didn’t want to see you anymore and then the strangest thing of all happened.
You were always very punctual on our previous dates, but this time you didn’t show up at all.
It was the first time in my life that I had been stood up by a man. And I was actually happy about it and laughed.
It was as if Papa had wanted to show me that I had made the right decision.
The next day, I deleted all my accounts on the dating apps.
I felt so relieved not to have to keep looking for something new.
Suddenly I had time to focus on other things and was open to new experiences.
And just 2 weeks later, I got this extreme push from Papa that made me write my first novel at the age of 30.
I feel that I don’t have to cut any bad bond between you and me, because all I feel for you is so much thankfulness, that you helped me find my way.
I wish you all the best in the world and I hope you found the woman that loves you the way you deserve.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.