DAY 8
Dear Julia,
you were the first woman that I ever began to trust a little bit.
Although you are younger than me, you became my guiding mentor.
In November 2022 your images constantly popped up in my Instagram, like this was a guiding from Papa, that I must take a closer look to your work.
I started watching your YouTube-Videos and I was overwhelmed.
So, my heart decided to take you as my coach.
And the knowledge that I became from you changed my whole life.
I learned that every woman has massive wounds inside herself, not even just from her own past.
For centuries, women were oppressed, mistreated, kept down, regarded as commodities, raped, burned as witches, and deprived of their freedom. And all these wounds have since been passed on from woman to woman.
And you showed me how I can fix these wounds and cut those painful bonds.
I will ever be thankful that you brought me to one of my favorite songs. When I saw the Video of “Rose” by Ayla Schafer the first time it triggers so much inside of me.
In the evening of that day, I was sitting on the ground of my living room, listening 3 times to this song, and imagined to sit in a circle with other women. At first, I felt very uncomfortable in that situation, but then I took the hands from the woman left and right next to me. And then suddenly I started to cry and all these walls in my heart between me and those other women began to break down. The third time I heard the song, I was dancing with the other women around the campfire and it felt like we were close friends. It was so wonderful. Thank you so much for that.
Since then, I can see the wounds in every woman that I met and I feel a kind of a connection because of this.
You showed me how powerful I really am. And that I am a combination of a child, a wounded woman, a witch, a healer, a lover, a seductress, a goddess, a wild woman, a nature woman and a priestess. All these is every time inside of me and it is good and supposed to be like this. And whenever I want, I can let them come out. I am perfect the way I am. This is me how I really am.
And you taught me why manifestations and methods for growth in different types of issues work for men, but never worked for me no matter how much I tried. Because women don’t grow linearly like men, women live based on a circle of nature that rises for 4 weeks and then starts all over again.
On the top of that I learned how to let my feelings come out by dancing, crying, screaming or laughter, just the way it helps me and is supposed to be. Because of you I know and recognized how much in my life I was under pressure not to be so loud, not to be so sensitive, not to be so emotional and not to be so demanding. But I have the right to be like this, because that’s what women really are. We have so much power inside, how else could we handle to make our jobs, raise kids, make the housework, cooking and do other things we have to and get all these managed without breaking down every day.
I don’t have to cut any bad bond between you and me, because all I feel for you is so much thankfulness and love.
Thank you for giving me the story of Lilith, the real first wife of Adam. Thank you for giving me the stories of the goddesses Kali, Lakshmi, Gaia and so many more.
I will always be thankful for the way you changed my life.
I wish you and your family all the best in the world. May your life always be full of unconditional love.
Thank you, Papa, for this opportunity, I love you.